To Be Seen
I was afraid to be seen for years
Being seen
Was pretty scary to me
It came from not believing in myself
Afraid to get things wrong
Not getting many opportunities
I didn’t question it
I just kept quiet.
I began
Fading into the back
It became a place
I got comfortable
I felt like it was
Where I had to be
Being told
I wasn’t good enough for years
Being put on the shelf
Gathering up the dust
I felt like I was on
The outside looking in
Glazed with the downpour of rain
I felt so cold and so invisible
I wasn’t ready to
Take the steps forward
I had a lot of ideas to share,
But I was too fearful
To be seen
I just wanted to hide
Staying at the back
I wasn’t feeling confident to move
I was caught between the cracks
I didn’t feel beautiful
People were calling me ugly for so long
That I started to believe it
There’s nothing special
About me,
that’s what I thought.
Feeling doubtful, so fearful
I found it so hard to breathe
To find the right words
To be heard
I felt like I was mute
To have a voice
I felt voiceless.
I’m in a place now
Where being seen isn’t as scary
As before
But
I’m still on that journey.